I’ve been struggling to
write a blog for a few days. I love to
write what God fills my head with, be it funny, observation or words from
Him. But I’ve been struggling inside my
head for a few weeks. And while I was
processing this yet again, the song from Frozen came into my head – He’s a Bit
of a Fixer Upper. Here are a couple of
stanzas from the song:
So he's a bit of a fixer-upper,
but this we're certain of
You can fix this fixer-upper
Up with a little bit of love!
but this we're certain of
You can fix this fixer-upper
Up with a little bit of love!
He's just a bit of a fixer-upper,
He's got a couple of bugs
His isolation is confirmation
Of his desperation for healing hugs
He's got a couple of bugs
His isolation is confirmation
Of his desperation for healing hugs
Yep, again a song spoke to
me. I can’t imagine life without
music. I feel this song can describe all
of us. Some need more fixing up than
others, depending on where we are on our journey or what we have or are going
through. I am definitely a fixer
upper. And I have to remind myself of
this when I get too down on “me”. Because we are all fixer uppers, not trash to
be thrown away.
I love where we are
living. I love the opportunities that
are here. I love our new church. I love the weather. I love that Phil is working at a job he loves
and they love him. We would not have
made this “jump” if we didn’t have family doing this along side of us. And yes, it is definitely hard not having our
other two children here with us as well as those friends that have known you forever and love you no matter how you
look, what you are feeling, or the mistakes you have made. The person (s) that you can see them and
first response is to give you a hug. The
ones that always have a Kleenex handy
when the tears fall
easy. Friends that know what to say to
give you a lift, a laugh, or maybe just to listen.
I’m going to put this out
there (I know some of you already know this) – I have an illness called depression. I purposely stated it that way because it is
an illness, not a choice. There are
times that it “rears” its ugly head and makes life a challenge. A challenge because it is like a battle going
on within, tears always at the surface.
Like other illnesses there is medication to help, exercise and sleep
that are good, as well as some other things.
Well, right now – it’s a
battle. If your path were to cross mine
I would smile and greet you. I would
probably engage in conversation. I would
most likely try to direct it towards you because it is uncomfortable to think
about me.
Counseling helped me to
learn to redirect negative thoughts, to look at things in the right way and to
recognize what is going on when the difficult days appear. It is also a tremendous help to have an
amazing husband that loves me unconditionally.
But what I am missing are those close friends with the Kleenex and the
hugs.
I didn’t want to write
this at first, because I am a Christian and this shouldn’t be happening,
right? WRONG! We live in an imperfect world, we have
struggles and illnesses. We all are fixer
uppers (not trash) and He also reminds me of a children’s song that I have also
loved the words to – He’s Still Working
on Me
Chorus:
He's still working on me
To make me what I need to be
It took him just a week to make the moon and stars
The sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars
How loving and patient He must be
'Cause He's still workin' on me
Repeat Chorus
There really ought to be a sign upon my heart
Don't judge him yet, there's an unfinished part
But I'll be better just according to His plan
Fashioned by the Master's loving hands
Repeat Chorus
In the mirror of His word
Reflections that I see
Makes me wonder why He never gave up on me
But He loves me as I am and helps me when I pray
Remember He's the potter; I'm the clay
Repeat Chorus (x2)
He's still working on me
To make me what I need to be
It took him just a week to make the moon and stars
The sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars
How loving and patient He must be
'Cause He's still workin' on me
Repeat Chorus
There really ought to be a sign upon my heart
Don't judge him yet, there's an unfinished part
But I'll be better just according to His plan
Fashioned by the Master's loving hands
Repeat Chorus
In the mirror of His word
Reflections that I see
Makes me wonder why He never gave up on me
But He loves me as I am and helps me when I pray
Remember He's the potter; I'm the clay
Repeat Chorus (x2)
How loving and patient He
must be! ‘Cause He’s still working on
me, a fixer upper! Give someone a hug
today – it can do more than you would ever imagine.
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